I lie here waiting,

waiting to hear from you, hoping to hear that you want me, as I realize you probably don’t need me like I need you. Thinking of all the things I could have, should have done differently. I know I’m hardly worth it but all I want is to make it work. But how do you make something work when only one of you wants it? I can’t ask you to do something you don’t want. I know our time together was short and it didn’t seem like much but to me it meant a lot. I cherished every moment we were together. I told myself this time was going to be different, that I could finally make someone happy but once again everything has come crashing down. All I want is for you to be happy and if it’s without me then I’ll learn to live with that. I just want you to be happy.

I need some sort of inspiration,

because I currently have no motivation.

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You can’t always get what you want. That’s for sure.

I’m coughing up a lung or two just so you know I’m breathing well in front of you.
I’m holding out a knife or two just so you know I’m standing next to you.
You can’t always be down or out. But if you try you won’t be found.
You can’t always get what you want. That’s for sure.
I’m sending out a note or two that says we’re all going to the same place,
so it doesn’t matter where you are in line.
I’m holding one hand or two depending if we’re walking or dancing.
Either way I’m feeling fine. 

…i wish.

big plans today,

and i couldn’t be more nervous.

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my tumblr crush and my real life crush are one in the same.

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i just want you to know,

i regret never showing you how much you truly meant to me.

i would do anything to go back in time but i know i can’t so im looking to the future.

im looking toward a time where we both are content with where we are.

where i have a job, and money, and can do anything and everything to make you happy.

a time where i can prove to you that i am worthy of you again.

and when that time comes, i hope you still think of me the way i think of you.

i hope your heart aches like mine, when you think about missing me.

and i hope you will take me back.

i know i am the person that can make you happiest and all im asking for is another chance.

whether it’s now or sometime in the future. i just want to be loved by you again.

hopefully you get to read this.

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we’ve watched 2 movies today and both of them have someone named rufus in them…

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